Standing on the Rock in TRUTH

For many within humanity life is a constant battle, whether it be to lose weight, to gain weight, to look younger, to get that higher paid job, the list of "to do" in today's conditioning is longer than it has ever been.  Now there is the added stress of a conditioning that sees us not upset anyone else for fear of "judging" and yet the judging is done within the conditioning.  Freedom of speech and thought is eroded to the point of madness and still we try to move beyond and continue as "normal".

I began my journey many years ago when I sat outside a hospice building in the north of Scotland after my mother had just passed. I was in so much pain at that time that I cried out to "God" to remove all that was not TRUTH in my life. Somewhere deep inside of me was a voice that was calling to me that there was "more" and that somehow I was not on the path to more but on the path to "same".

My mother lived her life trying to do her best for those around her. She had struggled hugely since my father died in an automobile accident when I was younger. He was 40 years old as was my mother. That defining moment of grief was to place her on a path that saw her own death some 21 years later.  Always my mother "worried", she never usually vocalized her fears, always keeping them inside, always keeping up appearances that she was "fine". But she wasn't fine, she worried, continually. When she began to feel ill she also kept this to herself.

I sat in a hospice room when i was 36 years old watching my mother slip from this world and I knew that God was showing me something that even now I am still trying to understand.  We can have all the money in the world, we can have all the appearance, we can present ourselves as being in full "control" but if it is only skin deep, what is the purpose of any of it? If we do not really love and allow ourselves to be loved, if we do not care and allow ourselves to really care then why have we existed?

Perhaps the question is as old as humanity for eons humans have asked "what is my purpose?" and all these years later the question is still being answered for me and for me to understand. It is not simply a question and an answer, the human logical mind expects this and may demand it but if the last few years have shown me anything it is that the answer  is so vast, our purpose and place in wider creation so full of meaning that our human logical mind will instantly reject it out right. So God gives us grace to understand through our physical everyday life experience.

It may seem almost madness to have taken a journey of thousands of miles to finally surrender to Christ. At the time the journey looked other than it was and it is only now some years later that I can fully understand the journey I set out on. Always in the grace of God and always fully protected but I had to LEARN the protection, I had to UNDERSTAND the protection, at all moments my human logical mind kept screaming at me "to do", those around me urging me to give up and go back.  But as with all journeys that are from our Creator YHWY there is only ever one direction of travel and that is forward.  I could not go back for a variety of very physical reasons so I had to trust and to remain on the Rock that is Christ when I felt there was no movement to make.

For those who are starting out on their journey with our Creator YHWY I urge you to seek refuge on the Rock that is Christ regularly. Those around you, those closest to you, who will tell you that its "only because we love you" will try to persuade you off that Rock for they do not see it, they cannot understand it. For those who are within the process of Salvation in TRUTH the shedding of the "old" is the trigger for those who have lived and understood the "old".  Those around us fear the change in us because they have been conditioned to reject "change". WE have been conditioned to reject "change" so we make the process harder than it needs to be due to our own rebellion which is often kept hidden until our Creator YHWY reveals it to us.

At this time within this Salvation in TRUTH process I am processing a part of my journey that has deeply affected me in ways that I could not comprehend at the time. We are often so busy "surviving" that we do not see the adapting that we go through and this of course is how darkness works to manipulate.  For those who have read the journey I took within the Twelve Tribes Community it may have been a confusing read and you may have asked why I simply did not leave.  That question can be asked of any situation where there is emotional trauma, regret, pain and shame.  Why not leave?

For those who have endured similar journeys where deep emotional trauma has taken place the question is one that will try to haunt but it is a question that can be answered very simply.  We cannot see that which we are in at any given time, hindsight is always 20/20 but we also do not appreciate the understanding that only said experience can allow us to reach. We will never reach this understanding alone, our human logical mind will reject the understanding and file it under pain.  Only our Creator YHWY through His Son, Christ can lead us to understanding and our understanding often only reaches us when we stop running. When we have the courage to stand firmly on the Rock that is Christ and breathe, allowing understanding to clear our vision, to heal our pain and to open up a new way of moving which is always forward.

By contrast Lucifer will have us stand at the Cross and feel every nail going in over and over again, he will reap from the harvest of sorrow that wells deep inside of us as we relive the pain and trauma over and over again.  My time in the Twelve Tribes showed me the depth of human pain that exists, almost like it had collected itself in one place so that it was actually visible. A people who firmly believe that they are rejects from society that they have to slave to be considered worthy for God to even look at them. This is not of our Creator YHWY, this is straight from Lucifer.  A people who firmly believe that in their subservience and their denial of their own basic human rights that they are somehow chosen because they have suffered more and have endured more. Once again this is straight from Lucifer.

For Christ went to the Cross FOR US, so that we did not have to go into physical death in order to know our Creator YHWY. Christ gave His life for our sin to allow us a way out of the death and destruction of Lucifer's world. But Lucifer has created a false path, the construct of religion would have its followers crucify themselves repeatedly in full denial of the power of Christ Himself.John 8:12 (KJV) Then spake Jesus again unto them, saying, I am the light of the world: he that followeth me shall not walk in darkness, but shall have the light of life.

We are not asked to follow anyone other than Christ, Himself. We are not asked to adopt or follow religion, religious ritual or rote but simply to surrender to Christ and open our hearts. There are millions trapped within the construct of religion and non religion that are standing ready to crucify us for this simple step and we must forgive them for they do not understand the darkness that has surrounded them.

We are warned that the darkness will grow darker in the final days. At this time darkness is harvesting deeper than it has ever done before. More within humanity are finding it more and more of a struggle to get through each day and this is because the pain that resides deep within humanity seeks an outlet.  It seeks to be acknowledged. Acknowledging our own pain is step one, it does not make that pain okay, it does not mean that the pain is of our own making and we have to somehow bear it, it simply means we acknowledge that yes we are in pain.  Then we open our hearts and pray to our Creator YHWY for His Son, Christ to step into our hearts and light the way. It is this simple, no ritual needed, no church attendance needed, no baptism needed for the Holy Ghost is gifted by Christ Himself.

The end of the end of times is now approaching and we have the same choice that we have always had except now our choice is made more challenging due to the conditioning of those around us.  Accepting Salvation in TRUTH is personal, it is a covenant that is established between Christ, our Creator YHWY and ourselves. We need no ones permission to accept Salvation, no ones judgment as to how that Salvation in TRUTH process unfolds for only our Creator YHWY truly knows the levels and depths of pain that we have endured.

For those of you who feel you are drowning, please look to Christ, simply surrender it all, take one step and allow the Rock to reveal itself to you. As with all who are drowning the need to get breath and simply rest are first and foremost, comfort is found on the Rock for the flood has begun and the only safe place to stand is on said Rock in TRUTH.  From this viewpoint a new way of living is revealed as we walk with Christ out of the old and into the new in TRUTH. Kx